Definition Of Being Human Ch. 5

~Sebastian's POV~
"Now. Would someone like to explain to me how this happened?"
I smiled menacingly at all of them with an obvious aura of annoyance
surrounding my head.
Finny sniffled as a background of a ruined garden appeared behind him.
"I wanted to plant ______'s favorite flowers to make her smile again, I just thought using the weed killer would kill the rose bushes faster so that I had more room to plant ____'s flowers."
Mey-Rin tried to hide the shameful blush on her face as a background of a
broken glass cabinet and a broken set of china on the floor stood behind her.
"I wanted to use our best china set for ______'s dinner...I remembered that
she once said that she liked the color."
I finally turned to Bard, whose blond hair was once again in an afro and his face was covered in soot.
Bard looked to the side when the kitchen appeared behind him, everything blackened by soot with something in the middle that once was edible now burnt into charcoal.
"I wanted to make _____ some food...so that she would get better quicker,
I just thought using a blowtorch would heat the soup more faster..."
I glanced at Tanaka, who was sipping his tea and occasionally making that odd sound of his.
A sigh bubble popped out of my mouth as I closed my eyes, trying to control my anger.
I opened my eyes and stared at all of them. How they tremble in fear at my presence made me smile in content.
"...Really? All of this trouble for Miss______? My, my. It seems like none of you will have anytime nor the energy to do something for our guest after I'm through with you."
Finny laughed nervously as he said, "We just want to help make her feel better, is all! And she's more than a guest..."
I frowned again in annoyance at how this mere human talked about ________ but quickly made my face stoic once more.
"Just clean up this mess by the time I come back. And everything must be exactly the way it was before."
All of them, excluding Tanaka rushed past me to start their duties. I suddenly heard my master calling for me. I walked slowly in the halls, towards my master's studies.
Opening the door, I saw him staring out his window with his usual bored expression. His hand motioned lazily towards his empty tea cup, silently ordering me to fill up.  
"Where is Miss______? I haven't seen her in 2 days."
I took the cup and refilled it with the steaming brown liquid of Earl Grey.
Placing it in front of him, I replied, "I regret to say that she has fallen ill. I believe _______ had caught cold on the day we went to town."
My master suddenly chuckled. I looked at him in concern, fully aware that he wouldn't laugh at another human's suffering except for those who deserve their pain.
"My lord...?"
His blue eye stared at me as he picked up the teacup.
"You said, '_______'."
I stared at the floor as he took a sip.
I expected him to say more on the matter, but he instead asked about his schedule for today.
I answered him swiftly before asking for my leave. My master granted it in a bored tone and studied the papers before him as I left the room.

I stood outside my master's door for a few moments before closing my eyes and walked away back towards the kitchen. The kitchen was not clean enough in my taste, but at least that idiot of a chef is following my orders. I ignored his annoyed gaze as I began making a bowl of chicken soup for ________, since she's suffering from a cold.
'How does a bowl of vegetables and chicken swimming in a broth help a mere illness? Honestly, if humans knew better, they would try to avoid getting sick in the first place.' I mused in my head. I paused in my thoughts when I thought about _______ and I getting caught in the rain.
'...I suppose its my fault that ______ became ill...I wasn't very attentive to the weather anyway. If I was, she wouldn't be stuck in her room all day.' I sighed in irritation as I thought, 'But if she didn't get sick, then I wouldn't be able to take care of her and have her all to myself.'
I muttered under my breath as I stirred the soup.
"Honestly, Sebastian. You're a butler, and most importantly, a demon. Act. Like. One. I poured the soup into a bowl of china and glanced out the window, and furrowed my brow. I shook my head as I saw Finny holding a baby blue bird instead of following my orders. I walked outside and stood behind him as Finny petted the bird gently.
"Aw, poor bird. You felled out of your nest, didn't you?"
I slapped his head roughly causing Finny to release the bird.
I watched the bird fly away back towards the nest high above in the oak tree.
'...Hmm. A pest problem. I'll take care of that later.'
I looked back down when Finny rubbed the side of his head, already a lump was starting to form.
"Ow! Why did you go and do that for?!"

~Your POV~
You watched from your window, and frowned worriedly as Sebastian started to talk to Finny while his gloved hand pointed at various dead bushes. Though you couldn't hear what the butler was saying, you could tell by Finny's face that it wasn't at all kind. You and Sebastian watched as Finny walked towards the nearest bush with a tearful expression.
Sebastian stared back up at the tree before turning around and without you realizing it, the butler saw you staring back at him. You tilted your head in confusion when he sighed before coming back into the mansion. A few minutes later, you heard a knock, and granted them access. Sebastian opened the door and smiled sadly a bit.
"I thought I told you to stay in bed."
You ignored his remark as you turned back towards the window.
"Why are you so hard on them? They're trying their best. I could hear Mey-Rin and Bard running around downstairs. They try so hard sometimes. Especially Finny! Look!"
You pointed at the gardener as he pulled out the roots of a dead bush with a TT^TT expression as the lump on his head became more apparent.
Sebastian stood behind you and looked over your shoulder.
"...Hmm..."
You shivered a bit and felt Sebastian's gaze on you. You continued to look out the window before you felt Sebastian wrapping your blanket on your shoulders and felt him leading you away from the window.
The butler ignored your protests as he made you lay back down on the bed before sitting beside you and holding a bowl of soup and a spoon. You sat up and frowned at him, saying,
"Sebastian. You didn't have to! And besides, I'm not that sick!"
As if on cue, you suddenly sneeze. You opened your eyes and saw Sebastian with an amused expression.
"Not that sick?" he asked as he handed you his handkerchief.
You took it gratefully and blew in it silently. You put it on the shelf beside your bed and turned back towards Sebastian, and saw him holding a spoon filled with chicken soup. Sebastian blew the soup a few times before nodding at you as he moved the spoon more closer to your mouth.
You frowned again and crossed your arms with a sniff. You stubbornly closed your eyes as you shook your head twice.
"I may be still sick, but I can still feed mysel-"
Sebastian cut you off as he simply put the spoon in your mouth.
You swallowed and frowned at him as he removed the spoon from your mouth.
You blushed a bit as Sebastian laughed at your expression.
"I'm a butler. It is my duty to take care of my master and my guest."
You muttered under your breath as he got another spoonful of soup.
"Yeah, but I didn't see you feeding Ciel at the dinner table."
Sebastian chuckled again before continuing to feed you.
Soon, you finished your meal and stared at Sebastian with a hopeful look.
"Can I get up now?" you asked.
Sebastian smiled as he shook his head.
You groaned and crossed your arms again and glared at your wallpaper.
Sebastian chuckled under his breath and smiled cheekily at you.
"Such a stubborn human."
With that, he laid you back down before walking towards the window and closed the drapes before leaving the room with the empty bowl in his hands.
You sighed and closed your eyes trying to fall asleep. You opened one eye and peeked at the clock beside your bed.
7:45
'Argh! I've been stuck in this room for 2 days!'
You sat back up and thought for a few moments before getting out of bed and grabbed your robe. You wrapped around you and tied it securely before opening the door slowly.
You looked to your left and your right, for any sign of Sebastian. Not seeing him, you tiptoed outside and closed the door behind your silently. You tiptoed down the stairs and walked around until you saw the dining room door slightly ajar. You peeked in and saw everyone standing with solemn expressions as Ciel ate his dinner. You stared at Sebastian as you thought about what he said earlier.
'"Such a stubborn human" ...He talks as if he wasn't one.'
You shivered, but not because of your cold but of the feeling of uneasiness.
You stepped back and continued to wander around before you saw two glass doors leading to the backyard. The moon shone brightly on the white rose bushes around you. You plucked one of them and smelled its sweet aroma. You looked around for a bench to sit on and finally saw one underneath a tall oak tree that was dying due its old age.
You walked towards it and placed a hand against its rough trunk as you stared at its empty branches. You sighed before sitting down on the white marble bench and gazed up at the sky, and watched as the stars slowly started to come out.
A hour passed by, and you suddenly heard footsteps coming towards you. You looked towards the sound and saw Sebastian walking with an exasperated expression.

You smiled sheepishly as you stood up to greet him.
Sebastian stopped in front of you and stared down at you.
"...Feeling better already?" he joked playfully.
You laughed as you shrugged your shoulders.
"I guess so. I just wanted some fresh air." you said with a small smile.
Sebastian smiled deviously at you as he replied. "Well, I could have opened the window for you." You smiled wider before looking down at the rose.
"Yes, I suppose, you're right, but I can take care of myself."
You sniffed the flower again before meeting Sebastian's gaze. You grinned at him and stepped closer to him to put the rose into his chest pocket. You murmured, "There..." as you fixed his coat jacket and was about to step away when his gloved hands wrapped around your wrists. You looked up and saw him studying you. "_______...I..."
You tilted your head in confusion and Sebastian sighed tiredly before he rested his forehead against your shoulder. His raven hair tickled your neck and you could smell his scent. Sebastian released your wrists as he wrapped his arms around your waist tightly. You blushed as you felt Sebastian nuzzling into your neck. "S-Sebastian...?"
Sebastian pulled away and stared again at you.

You stopped breathing when his face hesitantly drew closer and closer to yours.

A gentle breeze blew around the two of you just as Sebastian's lips were about to touch your own when you closed your eyes tightly and felt your legs give out underneath you as darkness surrounded you.

~Sebastian's POV~
I watched silently as _____ put the flower into my chest pocket. The flower's beauty was nothing compared to ________'s. When she was about to step away from, I couldn't stop myself from grabbing her wrists. I stared at her, and tried to say the words I never dared to say before. However, the fact that I'm a creature of the night and her, being a human, made me sigh instead. I rested my forehead against her shoulder and could smell how sweet her soul was. 'So sweet. So innocent. And so pure...'
I cursed myself for thinking that. I could never do that to my _______. I would rather suffer in the flames of hell for the rest of eternity than consuming my precious ________'s soul.
I hugged her tightly, as I continued to think about her soul. Involuntarily, I started nuzzle into her neck. I could feel her pulse quickening as I brushed my lips against her skin. I forced myself to pull away and stared at her. I hesitantly drew closer and closer to her and was about to make contact with her lips when she became limp.
"_________?!" I looked at her and cradled her face carefully. I sighed out loud once I realized that she fainted because of me.
'Such a delicate human.' I thought. I kneel down slightly as I picked her up gently before standing up with her in my arms. Her head rested limply on my shoulder and I nuzzled the top of her head as I walked back to my Master's mansion. I walked through the halls and unknowingly, walked into my room. I stared at my bed before looking back down at _______. I sighed aloud before putting ______ on the bed carefully. I stood beside her and watched her breath in and out deeply.  I removed my jacket and hanged it in its proper place before turning back towards ______ and began to loosen my tie. Not really caring about undressing anymore, I simply removed my shoes and laid back on the bed next to _______. I laid the back of my head on my arm and thought about what to do for my master's and ____'s breakfast tomorrow.
I decided that I would try to avoid _______ for a few days, because of my behavior towards her earlier.
'And yet, you're in the same bed with her.' I sarcastically thought to myself.
I looked at her again before turning on my side facing her. I reached out but then removed my glove with my teeth before brushing away some strands of hair of her face.
"So soft...just like a cat." I murmured under my breath as I played with a lock of her hair absentmindedly. I removed my hand immediately when she began to stir.  _____ turned on her side facing me and sleepily muttered my name. She drew closer and her hands clutched at my shirt when ________ suddenly placed her lips on mine and kissed me. My eyes widened in surprise before closing them as I kissed her back eagerly. The kiss only lasted a few moments, but it seemed like a century passed by me once more when ______ pulled away as she rested on my chest and continued to sleep. I, on the other hand, breathed out heavily before wrapping both my arms around her. I knew that she would only remember the kiss as a mere dream.
I started to frown as I worried about what would happen if _______ knew what I really am.
I felt her nuzzling into my chest and looked down at her small figure.
I sighed heavily again as I cradled _______'s face.

________....what did I get myself into?